Reading For Fun

reading for funNow that school is over for the semester, I feel completely useless with no purpose in life.  I never thought I’d feel like this but I do.  All I do is either sit home and watch tv, surf the net aimlessly trying to find the next thing that will distract me from my normal mundane routine or go to work.  That is literally what my life activities consist of right now.

I had planned on doing some recreational reading.  A friend of mine suggested I read Wizard’s First Rule by Terry Goldkind.  He thinks that I’ll like it, even though Im not into wizard books at all.  I also wanted to read the new Tariq Ali book called The Duel, Nasr’s The Garden of Truth, Farid Attar’s poem, The Conference of the Birds and a few others.  On top of that I wanted to re-read a few philosophers like  Rousseau, Hobbes, Locke and Mill.  But quite frankly, my degree has taken that desire for recreational reading out of me.

I actually used to love reading back in the day.  I was a fast reader and my comprehension was through the roof.  I always read at above grade level which actually drove me to read a lot.  But because of certain health issues of which I will not get into, my reading started to suffer.  I could not read as fast or as well and my comprehension went down the drain.  And because of my health condition, I had to essentially train myself how to read at a comfortable level.

By the time I got to university, all I did was read.  Read this paper, read that book, read such and such’s article; its all reading.  And the fact is, despite all the reading that I do, my reading really hasn’t improved all that much, despite the fact that all I do is read.  But now what has happened to me is that I have now associated reading a book with work.  I find it to be a chore to read a book whereas before, this was not the case.

This wizard book my friend wants me to read has been sitting beside my bed on the table for a good month now.  And I have yet to pick it up because I can’t drive myself to pick it up because it feels like work.  The other books that I have mentioned above are also sitting on the table next to me, literally collecting dust.

I really wish I could get rid of this association that I have developed inside of my head.  I want to read these books so as to further expand my mind.  Because I know that if I can get back into reading, I can develop new ideas and redevelop my old ones.  I just need that spark inside of me to trigger it.

I think I might try it tonight.  After all, there is no better time than now.  I am pretty sure that I am procrastinating when it comes to this.  I’ve pretty much learned that procrastinating on stupid issues like this doesn’t take a whole lot of effort to overcome.  All one needs to do is begin the task and be consistent in performing it.  Now, lets see if I can overcome the hurdle of picking up a book and beginning to read it.

  1. Jane
    December 28, 2008 at 6:27 pm

    Maybe you need a serious break from thinking about stuff. Stare at the tv for a few days, and your desire to read will come back… I always feel like Im killing brain cells when I watch tv, so it motivates me to move forward.

  2. December 28, 2008 at 6:51 pm

    You are probably right. And in fact I have been doing that. Ive been watching mindless comedy movies that take no mental effort to watch. Hopefully a few more days of watching those will get me back into reading.

  3. samza
    December 29, 2008 at 1:42 am

    I got the same requests to add some info to Book Blogs. Do you think I should make a group about bookish charities, mention it in the discussion, or leave these kinds of things out of the site altogether? What do you think?

  4. January 1, 2009 at 10:00 pm

    Happy Reading!

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