Posts Tagged ‘Love’

The Past Coming Back in My Dreams

February 17, 2009 Leave a comment

Earlier in my dreams tonight, someone from my past appeared who I haven’t thought about in quite a few years.

Back some time ago when I had just begun university, I met this one girl.  I met her on a forum and eventually we began speaking to each other on the phone and on MSN.  She was a real sweet heart.  The only problem was she lived all the way in NYC, which is pretty much on the other side of the continent from where I am.  So naturally over time, as is the case with the majority of long distance relationships, our relationship began to fizzle away.  She began to like someone else and I was left hurt.  And if I remember correctly, she’s actually the last girl that I have had feelings for.  I vowed that I would never fall for another girl unless I was sure that I was going to marry her.

After our relationship eroded, I began to think less and less of her and eventually moved on with my life.  But last night, for some odd reason she appeared in my dreams.  And after I woke up, I couldn’t help but think back to those times where she had the ability to warm me from inside.

She appeared in my dream briefly.  She wore a purple blouse and her hair had one of those semi perms (sorry if that’s the wrong term).  She looked very pretty.  She never said much, only a sentence or two.  I kissed her shoulder and that’s when I woke up.

Even though her apperance was a few seconds, I couldn’t help but feel down when I woke up.  What I am most intriqued about is how she came into my dream in the first place.  Like I mentioned earlier, I don’t have feelings for her anymore, I have never thought about her in years.  But somehow, I was able to see her in my dreams.

Weird phenomena these dreams are.


What I Have Learned This Week

November 20, 2007 3 comments

Aside from learning (semester after semester) what a pain it is to write essays hours before they are due, I have come to the complete realization that I am absolutely in love with television.  During my times of procrastination, I would frequently be surfing youtube for clips of various shows.  I am really starting to believe that those that work on television are extremely lucky and I assume they are happy. 

Right now, I am in the midst of downloading three shows that have since departed: Felicity, Freaks and Geeks, and Undeclared.  I was always intrigued by the ladder two shows but never really got into Felicity.  But lately, I don’t know, for some reason, it seems like a very intriguing show and very interesting story.  I will probably spend the majority of my Christmas holidays watching this show.  And after Superbad came out, I am starting to realize just how creative Seth Rogan and his crew really are. 

So what is it about television that captures me?  Now that I look back, I have always been into tv.  Ever since I was a kid, I was always glued to the TV.  Whether it was watching the news, or kids shows or prime time, I always found television to be fascinating.  As I grew older, I became intrigued with the beauty that is prime time television.  I think what really gets me is what television truly is: art.  Everything about television makes me intrigued.  The lighting, the angles, dialogue, the writing, the acting, music….everything.  I even find myself sitting there critiquing commercials. 

Even when I am doing homework at home, I’ll be sitting at my desk with the TV on the Weather Network or something with the volume muted.  Its almost like as if its some sort of companion, an imaginary friend.  The biggest thing about television though is the escapism.  Its like this constant escape from the reality of a not so wonderful life.  Just the fact that I can get away from it all with literally a click of a button is like the most amazing thing to me.  And now that television is on the net and on DVD, its even better.  You can actually watch shows that came to and end long ago or got cancelled.  Ive got all the Greg The Bunny Episodes on my computer!  And its only getting better.  Tivo, hi def, flat screens and all that great stuff is only enhancing the whole television experience.  I can’t even imagine what it will be like 10 years from now. 

I think that if I were not into what I am, I would probably seek a career in television.  The only downside to it is that it seems like the whole industry is very volatile with respect to jobs, especially for actors.  But nevertheless, it just seems like some of the greatest creative potential comes out on television.  And it also seems like because television is so readily available, many of us take this art for granted and don’t realize all the hard work that goes into creating these shows that we watch every day and the beauty that materializes out this work. 

I am literally the only person that I have met that feels this passionately about TV.  Mind you, I am the audience so I have a completely different perspective on it. Those that actually work in the industry may be able to pick out the flaws in what I have said.  And I can admit, there is a hint of romanticism in my perspective.  But even so, I honestly think, and I know this may sound lame, TV is one of the better things in my life and I am so glad to have it.  I wouldn’t give it up for anything. 

I love television.