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11:25PM…

February 24, 2009 2 comments

…sitting alone in a workroom in the library studying for a midterm tomorrow that I haven’t studied for until tonight.  Why oh why do I always do this to myself?  I will probably end up staying here until 3 at the very least.

It’s only Monday and I have already assured the destruction of the rest of this week.  Tired, groggy, upset sleeping pattern…I can just see myself being totally unproductive for at least 7 days.  Perfect recipe for the doing of nothingness.

Wish me luck!

Slow Start

So this semester has gotten off to a very slow start for me.

I had an hour long presentation last week which I literally pulled together at the last minute.  I didn’t even know the exact date my presentation was on.  It got so bad that I showed up to class one day thinking my presentation was that day.  I was so nervous and so not prepared.  I was actually contemplating telling the prof I was sick or something.  It turns out, my presentation wasn’t til a week later.  Luckily I managed to put together a decent presentation that the prof and the class actually appreciated.

I have a midterm coming up this Friday and I just downloaded all the notes we’ve gone through since the beginning of the semester off of the school site.  I have a week to study for it but as of right now, I have no idea what is going on in the class.  It’s not that I don’t go to class (although I have skipped a significant amount), I just don’t pay attention in that class.  All I do when I come to class is open up my notebook and surf the web; stalking people on facebook or thoroughly reading every article on every news site I can get to in an hour.  And as of right now, I have been sitting in the library attempting to study for the past three hours and I have gotten nothing done.

In my other class, I know I have a midterm coming up but I don’t know exactly when.  The prof has provided no dates on the course outline which is utterly frustrating.  On top of that, I have to submit a presentation proposal soon and I don’t even know what I will present on.  It would help if I went to that class, but I have literally attended that class twice since the semester as begun.

I really need to start getting my act together.  I was doing so well last semester; not only having fun but also keeping on top of all my work.  This time, it hasn’t played out that way.  Ive been having way too much fun and haven’t been paying any attention to my school work.

I had this little mantra last semester that if I get a little bit done each day or every few days, I won’t be stressing at deadlines.  I stuck to that and it actually worked.  It kept me from procrastinating (for the most part) and kept me on top of everything I have had to do.  I think I need to constantly remind myself of that. If I don’t, the semester will be over before I know it and I’ll be stuck in a position come exam time where I don’t want to be.  And it seems like this semester is going to fly by.  I looked at the calender today and its already Feb!.

Plus, I need to get over this Gossip Girl addiction that I’ve recently aquired…

Mondays…

November 24, 2008 2 comments

The week hasn’t even started yet and already today has been a write off. I got an essay due on Thursday and I was planning on starting it tonight but that didn’t really happen.  I’ll tell you why.  

First off, I can’t sleep these days and so I went to bed last night at around 12ish or so but didn’t fall asleep until around 5ish.  I ended up watching a movie on TV and it was only then that finally sleep came to me.  And then, I got up at 1 in the afternoon.  I could have slept more but my mom woke me up.  Mondays are bad for me because I only have one late afternoon class.  I should be going to this class, especially now given that the semester is almost over.  But not today.  I miss the one and only class I have.  So then I get onto campus at around 5ish in the evening, fully intending to work on my essay; gathering sources, reading them over and coming up with a rough outline of what will write, etc.  After briefly socialising with some friends, I went to the top floor of the library and sat in a cubicle.  I started off slowly but eventually began collecting sources, books and journal articles.  Since then, It has gone downhill from there.  

I’ve been on facebook for the last like three hours.  I’ve been listening to the same song for that long as well.  I’ve been talking on the phone, chatting on MSN and looking up useless stuff on the net.  And now the library tower is about to close in 45 minutes and I am too tired (even though I literally did nothing today) to begin studying.  

The worst part is, there is a free concert on campus tomorrow that I fully intend to attend that interfers with my prime studying time.  So tomorrow is another potential write off day.  So that leaves me only Wednesday to really begin this paper, write it and finish it if I plan on handing it on time on Thursday.  

I have two options here.  One, I can work really hard and get as much done as possible by Thursday, regardless of what time of day it is or Two, I can ask the prof for an extension.  

Hmmm….what to do; what to do?

I Hate This…

November 18, 2007 Leave a comment

This like happens to me every semester. Just when paper time is around the corner, I crash.  As of right now, I have two papers due, one of which was due Friday and the other one which is due on Monday.  I have all the books lying here on my bedroom floor but yet, here I am sitting here, not even making an effort to get myself writing.  And yet, here I am typing away on my blog.  For the last like three to four hours, I have sat here and surfed youtube and watched quite possibly every Freaks and Geeks clip as well as every Undeclared clip on the site.  Every now and then, between my periods of rationality, this thought of my crappy GPA comes to mind and I get this sinking feeling in my stomach and my legs get numb.  And to get rid of this feeling, I try and do something else…like watch another Undeclared episode, just to relieve my stress.  This weekend hasn’t helped at all.  I’ve had LSAT class all day Friday and Saturday and I have it Sunday as well.  That still isn’t an excuse considering I have had all of last week, up until Wednesday off for the long weekend.  I don’t know why I do this.   This happens every Goddamn semester.  I am at this point where I just hate papers now with such a passion.  I don’t want to write papers for which I have to be graded for the littlest things anymore.  Can you believe, I will get docked a third of a letter grade, just because I didn’t footnote write? Like bloody come on.  This isn’t good for my GPA, this isn’t good for grad school or law school either.  I really hate times like this.  Its times like this where I see my entire future collapse in front of me.  Like literally…I can see my entire life end right now.  And you know what the funny thing is? I never ever learn my lesson. I go through this hell every semester.  And I just never learn.  I wish I knew why I do this.  And to be honest, I really don’t know.  The only thing I can attribute this to is the lack of motivation and drive….which is so sad because I could be graduating like a year from now.  Why did life have to be so bloody hard? I can slowly see myself becoming a failure and I have nobody blame but myself.