The Past Coming Back in My Dreams

Earlier in my dreams tonight, someone from my past appeared who I haven’t thought about in quite a few years.

Back some time ago when I had just begun university, I met this one girl.  I met her on a forum and eventually we began speaking to each other on the phone and on MSN.  She was a real sweet heart.  The only problem was she lived all the way in NYC, which is pretty much on the other side of the continent from where I am.  So naturally over time, as is the case with the majority of long distance relationships, our relationship began to fizzle away.  She began to like someone else and I was left hurt.  And if I remember correctly, she’s actually the last girl that I have had feelings for.  I vowed that I would never fall for another girl unless I was sure that I was going to marry her.

After our relationship eroded, I began to think less and less of her and eventually moved on with my life.  But last night, for some odd reason she appeared in my dreams.  And after I woke up, I couldn’t help but think back to those times where she had the ability to warm me from inside.

She appeared in my dream briefly.  She wore a purple blouse and her hair had one of those semi perms (sorry if that’s the wrong term).  She looked very pretty.  She never said much, only a sentence or two.  I kissed her shoulder and that’s when I woke up.

Even though her apperance was a few seconds, I couldn’t help but feel down when I woke up.  What I am most intriqued about is how she came into my dream in the first place.  Like I mentioned earlier, I don’t have feelings for her anymore, I have never thought about her in years.  But somehow, I was able to see her in my dreams.

Weird phenomena these dreams are.

*YAWN*

I really Miss sleep. Like seriously. I miss sleep.  I want sleep. I need sleep.  I slept last night for a bit and had one of the most pleasant dreams I have ever had in a while.  Like I actually woke up happy for once.  What made it even more pleasant was that there was a certain someone that I was with in the dream.  But yea…I so wish I could sleep right now. Times like this where I wish I didn’t have this stress lingering over my head.